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35 Years, Day 210

Today started a little groggy but got better! Side note: If anyone reading this wonders why my Energy Checklist includes only whether or not I ate breakfast and no other food items, its partially because Denise Austin’s energy checklist in her book doesn’t mention food in that spot (although she talks quite a lot about food in other chapters), but also because I have a history of eating disorders going back to about the age of 13. At thirteen, I started calorie counting to the nth degree and got down to 109 pounds on a five foot seven frame. (I had been 134 pounds and had already had regular periods for two years when I started dieting.) My periods went away and my Mom freaked out. After this, I got obsessed with food and started binge eating, gaining about 40 pounds in a year. From there on through my late twenties I had an awful relationship with food. Starving and binge eating quite a lot. This whole area of my life has calmed down quite a lot in my brain in recent years. I no longer keep a running total of calories I’ve eaten in a day in my brain (something I did for years after I wanted to stop, but my brain wouldn’t let me stop.) I’ve now been almost exactly 143 pounds at the doctors office for about 8 years running. Do I wish I was, say… 134 instead? I mean yeah kinda. But if I think about it too much I get really anxious. So in trying to become the healthiest, calmest version of myself I can be, I’ve decided to focus on pretty much everything else, and better food habits may come along with that, but they are always going to be on the periphery.

That said, we can move onto my energy checklist for the day!

Energy Checklist
◊ I got enough sleep last night. Kinda sort of? I was on the internet too late and didn’t give myself time to unwind properly. I went through the motions of my bedtime stretch and my worry journal but was a little wound up when I lay down which, when it takes an hour to fall asleep on a good night, wasn’t ideal. I did sleep 8 hours but it was fitful.
◊ I energized with my morning stretch (detailed in book). Yes
◊ I ate breakfast. Cup of coffee and my usual wheat-bix/raisin bran cereal with milk.
◊ I drank eight glasses of water. Six cups today and I’m still going! I’ve been downing my fruit juice/water mix.

◊ I got outside for some fresh air and sunshine. 
Yes, my hubby and I went for a walk on a gravel road near where we live. We walked a different section of the road than we normally walk and it kinda sort of felt like we were explorers. Ha ha.
◊ If I caught myself in a negative thought, I turned it positive. Somewhat. I’ve been doing pretty good lately but there are weeks when I’m really gloomy and anxious. So if I start spiraling a bit, I’ll note it here and start working on techniques to adjust.
◊ I connected with someone. Just my hubby! We live in a remote, tiny community and we are on summer break from our jobs, and many of our neighbors are out of town. So it’s just me and my hubby a lot lately. Good things we get along and also like doing our own thing in proximity to each other a lot! Ha ha.
◊ I did something fun or relaxing, just for me. I read more of my Kristan Higgins novel, “Somebody to Love.” It’s kind of silly. But her books always keep me entertained!
◊ I worked out for thirty minutes or more. Yes about two hours today! But not strenuous activity. I really don’t like huffing and puffing. Insanity? Not my thing. (Kinda my husband’s thing.) My hubby and I’s walk was about an hour, and then I did an hour of yoga. I’ve been doing a 14 day couch to hero yoga plan from Amazon Prime; I did two episodes today. It’s a really good beginners series. And I was sweating during the balance poses!
◊ I only went on the internet between six to eight PM: No but not bad. When my school job starts up again I’m going to try and stick to this more. Get home, relax, have dinner, then do what I need to do on the internet, then be off by 8 PM so it doesn’t affect my sleep. Hmm. For now I think I should be off at least from 8PM on! I’ve got a half hour more!
◊ I did my bedtime stretch (detailed in book.) I did it last night and will do before bed! I will start my bedtime ritual at 9 tonight and report how it went tomorrow!


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